Already I feel like I'm gone or lost or something. ALONE. That's what I feel. I know I'm not, I've got a good home, a sister ho loves me and would give me the world if it was possible, a brother in law who likes me and his family who thinks I'm pretty cool. Still though I feel ALONE. have you ever found yourself feeling so compleltley lost and alone that you cant stand it or take it anymore? I mean like everything's not working at all. Yeah, that feeling the one where it all feels hopeless. I miss so much. I miss my brother, I miss my best friend. I miss when everything was okay, but why do I miss what I never had? Right now at this very moment I want my father, but thats a want and a need thats never going to be fufilled. I wish I could say the words father, dad, daddy, or anything that means that, but I cant. And it hurts. I'm walking through parks and waching kids in the stores and I see them with their dads and I just want so bad for that to be me. Running to my father and holding on to him, but I cant.